Watercolor Ghost Town

Watercolor Ghost Town

even though we’re friends that rarely talk
thought i’d try to maybe scale that wall
didn’t know that things had headed south
when i put my foot into my mouth

i spend all my days feeling things so out loud
if I could just tell them that i care
i’d be a better one

i know you were lost
i thought i could find you
and i’ll take you to my little ghost town

and I know that what i did was wrong
so i sing this would be song
cause the thought it didn’t enter my mind
that my words would make it worse this time

i pick up your pieces all day in the sun
if you can forgive me, then i’ll know
that you’re the better one

i know you were lost
i thought i could find you
and i’ll take you to my little ghost town

A Reason

that tree is so simple it works
just breathing and sighing like waves o’er the earth
no effort for it to just be
so tall and so strong, never questioning me

what is my point?
i can’t find a reason, i can’t find a reason

so silent so still in my bed
my mind will not rest though it’s tired and fed
there’s so much that i haven’t done
don’t know where to start, where the battle’s begun

what is my point?
i can’t find a reason, i can’t find a reason

I Can’t Stop My Heart From Breaking

at times when you needed me
i decided to remain strangers
was missing most of myself
and was nowhere to be found

for a while a broken promise
i saw you a different light
we’ve been through here before
i might find you somewhere

i can’t stop my heart from breaking

does she remember your name
those letters filled the drawers
three years, who’s counting
oh nevermind how we got here

not quite ready to listen
to what’s keeping us apart
i’d forgotten what it all was like
waiting for my anchor

i can’t stop my heart from breaking

i left it at your door
you left on your floor

it’s always a relief
building sugar snowmen
late in the afternoon
just to make sure you’re awake

i can’t stop my heart from breaking

i left it at your door
you left on your floor

Any Three Words

tell me you think i’m enough
and you’ll see us in the things you want
not knowing where we are
walking slowly,  i just go ahead anyway

you can say
any three words
but those three words
any three words
won’t keep us alive

you fought it for so long
with one breathe could you just move along
if i trust you to stay still
will you leave me lonely any way, anyway

you can say
any three words
but those three words
any three words
won’t keep us alive

The Weight

where did you go
your vacancy sighs
the bleak and the cold
can’t carry your high

to numb to believe
you simply survive
the rest of us grieve
for what was your life

and you just, pass time
with the weight, not the crime
and you just, pass time

caught in between
when reading your lines
a strain on the seem
with stitches so fine

we know you can’t be
a person you like
you nervously breathe
for what was your life

and you just, pass time
with the weight, not the crime
and you just, pass time

where did we go wrong?
what could we have done?

Just For Show

i thought i’d tell you a story
cause there’s no mystery to me
i’m soft and i’m round and not misunderstood
my arms are wide open to a world that’s no good

the saddest thing is
no one knows me like you think you do
and even sadder is
that no one likes that girl but you

if i told you i was something
i could never let it go
when both ways are broken
the best is just for show

i could sell you rotten apples
make a believer of a tree
you’re tough and you’re square
seemingly a cold statute
your mind is closed to those
who want to live life too

the saddest thing is
no one knows me like you think you do
and even sadder is
that no one likes that girl but you

if i told you i was something
i could never let it go
when both ways are broken
the best is just for show

the best is just for show…

Float

the wind was calm, the sun was high
i was sitting in a field when a bird swooped down and he asked why

why do you sit here with your head in your hands?
and i said because i seem to be a different person

and he says, just like water float past it
the second fear keeping the first alive

if you are prepared to accept these thoughts
don’t fight them, they will disappear
no matter how deeply and no matter for how long
you will take this with you and sing this song

and he says, just like water float past it
the second fear keeping the first alive

I Wasn’t Her

we were at your favorite spot at the park
and you held my hand so tight, it was hot
quiet breath and nervous hearts, who will start
we both know it’s come apart, but it’s hard

you weren’t everything that i wanted
and i wasn’t her
i wasn’t her

you pack your things while i’m at work, so i don’t have to watch
so many things that we once were in a box
and we’re both sorry and we’re both sad, but relieved
now all that’s left is a goodbye and the keys

You weren’t everything that I wanted
and I wasn’t her
I wasn’t her

You’re Not the Only One

early evening and skies are bright
in your eye there’s a spark
there’s a longing abound
when they know you’re around

there’s a comfort in being blind
if they don’t want to see
further down in the dark
are the friends you will need

where you are
you can think that you’re the only one
but you’re not
when you wake up then you’re life can start

take a break from your greatest part
just to know who you are
and you recently found
that i know you’re a fraud

where you are
you can think that you’re only one
but you’re not
it was easier when life was hard


The Strangled Song

shining bright i saw a hole in your wall
i knew the rest would fall
put in time and earn the right to be cold
is this what love is for

a scary place that time we just couldn’t be
and you fell or was that me
slowest race let’s not forget where we are
or how we got this far

you left me on the ground
who said you were right was wrong
you’re safe from every sound
who said you were right was wrong

backlit face the light it shines like before
now I know what’s in store
midnight chimes will we make it home safe and sound
i feel as if we’ve drowned

so displaced you stand alone at the shore
the wind, the sand, no more
say goodnight under the dim neon glow
we part ways I watch you go

you left me on the ground
who said you were right was wrong
you’re safe from every sound
who said you were right was wrong

who said you were right was wrong…

Helpless and Hopeless

forget for a minute, that this is how i came to be
can’t change who i am, just how i deal with things
on my own, all alone

lessons and letters, time passing quickly then slowly
so much time to think, but no time to breathe
deeply or fully

i’m gasping for air
and nobody cares
i’m helpless and hopeless
i can’t make a difference today
or the next day

more scared then ever of what lies ahead
no chance at fortune, just work til i am dead
finally resting my head

decades have passed, there’s no progress i’ve made
i sit doing nothing, but waiting for change
it will come, will it come

i’m gasping for air
and nobody cares
i’m helpless and hopeless
i won’t make a difference today
or the next day